Apology

If I offended anyone with this post, or this one, am sorry. And on that note, since I respect all your views, I will go ahead and share the views of one reader (all comments are being seen of course, but this was a chat.) I have take excerpts from the chat, complete with spelling mistakes common in all chat and all…

AM X: hey!!! Are u a pervert!!?

me: why?

7:13 AM X: i have read your blog now and i can’t believe that kissing story

me: which one?

the first or the second?

7:14 AM X: ahhh.. i thought we were at the same level but .. am shocked ,,,

me: what?

X: its written X -rated two

me: is there something wrong with kissing?

X: i disappointed ..

i dont know,

7:15 AM me: come on now..

if u dont mind me asking, how old are you?

X: i feel bad now chatting with u now… why? is it true it happened

to you

same age like you.. please dont write such stuff on your blog..

7:16 AM it sucks …. sucks to death to some people..

me: it did not happen

it is a fantasy

i would not go round telling my love life stories…

u are 20?

7:17 AM X: no am older.. even if it s a fantasy, it means you can do that .. coz you imagien it , then conceptualize

am sorry .. but i feel for you.

7:18 AM me: i do not understand..

what is it that gets to you?

X: sorry but i doubt if you are a girl

me: am sorry if u are disappointed in me

u doubt?

why?

girls do not write sex stories?

X: ohhh stop it!!

ngai!!

7:19 AM Maybe am too Ethical for you..

me: ok, tell me the part that makes u feel even worse…

7:20 AM X: please uphold the dignity of your blog.. i thought its a nice one .. let it be so..

me: and no, u are not too ethical

and it will be so..

for u, that is the last time i write something explicit

X: Dont write that stuff .. it stinks to everyone……

7:21 AM thats the truth .. even to you maybe .. u dont know but pole sana ….

me: listen here..

i appreciate ur critism

7:22 AM but if it stinks to you, how come those who left comments differ with you?

and u dont have to tell me sorry

X: i dont know, just coz there are many dont mean they are correct

7:23 AM me: what exactly is ur problem?

i thought u read novels

X: sincerely , its not now nice chatting with you … how can u write that stuff, doent it ache u?

7:24 AM yeah i read them , but surely can u like your kid read that stuff?

me: which kids are on the blogosphere?

X: Dont justify something un ethical … be a good person

me: relax..there is nothing wrong with sex

people can talk about it…

7:25 AM X: so many , not just in kenya , but all over the world

me: don’t u say anything with ur friends?

it does not mean u go around doing it..

7:26 AM X: stop it.. we dont argue about this… its black and white.. i guess we are different

or maybe too you conservative as you wrote and u , u are enlightened , yes ,, you are civilised and thats why u wrote it…

7:27 AM me: ok..u think it is okay to drink, but not to talk about a gift God gave us?

am not civilised..am open minded..

X: and am conservative….

7:28 AM am wasting my time arguing with you… thats bad, thats ponorgraphy, right?

me: that was romance..not porn

X: ohhhh

7:29 AM me: there is a thin line

can i ask u a personal question?

X: sure

no

7:30 AM dont ask me,

me: i wont bite..i promise

X: why do u justify that? thats bad, i mean try to concentrate on good sensibles , that story degrades you completely

7:31 AM me: in your eyes that is…

is it wrong?

X: maybe .. but i thought of you as a decent

me: i am decent

X: kumbe you are not. your intergrity as a decent lady is questionable now

coz of that story

7:32 AM me: just because i wrote what goes on in my mind..am now indecent?

come on..it’s a fantasy

that means it did not happen except in my brain

so i should not even have sex?

sex makes me of a questionable character?

X: You are sick ,,…. but am sorry for this, its the truth.

7:33 AM me: how can u explain ur birth?

the truth?

come on, dont be so naive

X: Do you know the human mind? the difference btn reality and fantasy …..

me: u’ve been on the net lpng enough

it is guys like you who pretend that sex doesnt exist, ban pple from talking about it and contribute to the rise in hiv/aids

7:34 AM X: probably you dont know about the huamn mind… i guess i know more about such stuff as imaginations and fantasy…

Hiv/Aids , you make me smile

me: so u have some of your own, right?

7:35 AM X: how does that contribute to curbing it?

the difference , as you put it..

me: talking about it stops one from acutally going and doing it..

7:36 AM X: lets stop this.. writing it so.. elicits those wishes to do so,

me: ha

X: girl , u pretend, you are good pretender

me: u’ve certainly made my day in ways u cannot imagine

7:37 AM and dont call me a pretender

if there is a pretender here, it si u

X: You also , you have made my week..

me: for chooishing to believe sex does not exist

7:38 AM X: Sex exists , thats true , but posting such stuff… on your blog just compels you to do it, and you write it

eti if you “If you are below 18 (madmyke..) I suggest you skip this post. If you are prudish, or conservative…it’s time for you to stop reading this as well.

why that then

me: i think we should agree to disagree

X: why that above statement

me: u should have kept off

because of the reaction of people like you

X: Shame on you !!

7:39 AM No why should people below 18 years not read

is it coz its so sweet ?

or so educative?

me: stop saying shame on me..

7:40 AM X: You simply dont know more also .. about it… its your blog.. its your life and thats my advice, take it or leave it,,

me: am not going to lose my temper over an uneducated, conservative, pretentious reader…

and i choose to leave ur advice

X: i even dont know you much..

ohhh… dont , please dont lose your temper, its not worth it

7:41 AM Good

7:42 AM we can talk about some thing alse sensible like the waki report

me: i suggest we stop chatting since u are seated on this stool of high moral authority judging others

waki report or not

X: but not describing how to have sex

noo no lets chat!!

am sure though our differences we can learn form each other positive things

7:43 AM me: am not so sure any more

after all, i have disappointed u

and am indecenet

sometimes the choice of words matters

7:44 AM and anyway, i have to log off kidogo..then be online in a minute, sawa?

X: thats true.. you have disapointed me, and i feel for you.. and i feel you are not decent… thats true.. try in your own conscience and inner self to be good . and not in the world perspective

please i beg you

okey no problem , i am just here till 8.30

7:45 AM but please dont get angry , am sorry if i made u angry

7:46 AM me: gimme a min

X: we are intellectuals, in a univeristy and thats why we should not be controlled emotionally , just like our leaders kibaki and raila then agreed to be together no mater the difference

These messages were sent while you were offline.

7:48 AM X: hey , you are offline

7:52 AM me: back online..

i had to switch comps\

but i cant stay for long..

7:53 AM X: please dont write that again,,

ohh , dont mind i will pay for you, i wish i could,

i wish i could sambza u my unlimited 1gps internet broadbandconnection

7:54 AM me: so do i..

am hooked to the internet

X: okey

me: actually, i have a meeting to go to..at 7pm\

am already late

7:55 AM X: Dont write that again…. even if you dream or you wish.. dont write it, just pray in the morning for a righteous mind and it will alright

me: i Will write what i want

7:56 AM when i want

if i want

X: You may laugh , but for the few years i have lived i have learnt that life is tricky

me: u shall not dictate it

yeah..

X: You need to be smart , and think about the obvious

me: we’ll see about that

u cant be that much older than me..

and am not stupid

X: Dont write it , !!!

me: and yes, i do think

X: Am sure you wont!!

7:57 AM Am sure You Wont

me: i write what i want

we’ll see

do not make me do it

the more u tell me not to write..

X: Okey, Will see…

me: the wilder my imagination gets

X: its not about me but its about you

7:58 AM Dont write it!!!!

me: anyway

i have to go now

X: Dont !! and Never?

me: time is not on my side..

X: Do you have political ambitions?

ohhh you are going?

me: and please, lay OFF telling me what to do, okay?

am not 10

and no political ambitions

not now, not ever

X: Okey, nice chatting with you,

These messages were sent while you were offline.

7:58 AM X: great

8:09 AM X: Just because those people click on your blog..unethical post .. should not fuel you to write such…Girl dont get driven wrongly…

8:10 AM “If your sexual fantasies were truly of interest to others, they would no longer be fantasies”

“Fantasies are more than substitutes for unpleasant reality; they are also dress rehearsals, plans. All acts performed in the world begin in the imagination

8:13 AM “When a fantasy turns you on, you’re obligated to God and nature to start doing it – right away” Fantasy is an exercise bicycle for the mind. It might not take you anywhere, but it tones up the muscles that can. Of course, I could be wrong.”

8:17 AM Hope this helps… Its because i worry and thus i care…. more about you.. i maybe a stranger but Dont! Remember to pray , And be the girl i thought you were.

8:18 AM God bless You and looking forward to meeting you again, God bless You

My reply

Hey,
If that is what you think, its your opinion. I beg to differ but of course you shall not change ur mind, so I shall save my breath.

Listen, I do not know what kind of girl you thought I was but obviously, you thought wrong. You cannot believe everything that you read on the internet, and be open minded, in life you meet all sorts of people, and you can’t just perform judgement upon them.

And speaking of ethics, I guess people are different. Who is to judge? Who is to tell others what to do? Who gave you the moral authority to declare my post unethical?

And of course, you CANNOT tell me what to do.

And God bless you too. May he help you see the light beyond the veil of judgement